I have a root of evil inside me.
It doesn’t take much research into my family history to see it woven through every generation. Depression, alcoholism, suicide, domestic abuse — it’s all there. This blood is in my veins. This story is my story.
I read about the tendencies of my personality type, and learn I am rated “Most likely to be depressed”, like it’s some sort of prize. I am also likely to be idealistic, and must be burdened occasionally by the necessity of functioning in the real world. I am likely to be overly emotional, to lash out in anger when things don’t go my way, and to base all of my decisions on feelings. When I read about how I long for close human connections, but don’t know how to get over myself long enough to really connect with anyone, I say YES. That’s me. [Read more…]